(Book 1) Before: What Am I Here For?
(Book 2) During: The Possibilities of Me
(Book 3) After: I Know Who I Am!
The trilogy of Unnamed and Unwanted was birthed from a true place of sorrow and seclusion to survival and success. The subtleties of manipulation that were established through verbal and emotional abuse from being unloved brought about bad choices and decisions. Those bad choices lead to self-sabotage that almost caused Cherise to permanently self-destruct. What saved her? How damaging is verbal and emotional abuse? What is subtle manipulation? How do we identify it? How do we overcome it? What caused Cherise to triumph over the enemy?
My Brother said that like it wasn't supposed to affect me. And why should it? How am I supposed to feel? What do I say to Jeanine? Or to the kids? Thoughts and emotions are beyond out of control. Maybe I should stay and talk to her. As I finished my hair, I decided on an emotion to dwell in...HATE. I left the house without saying anything to anyone.
I know "hate" is a strong word and emotion but in my defense, I had six years to think back on, build and create it. Remember I first met Jeanine at age 8, when my daddy had his first heart attack. Then Jeanine hustled and hung around for the next 6 years in my home knowing who I was to her and never said a word. Now the comments and the kitchen conversations that always seems to end whenever I came around make sense.
Now the mystery of why her children look like me and my brother even though we're not "related" is solved. Now I understand why Jeanine was able to come and go as she pleased. It's one thing to be abandoned at birth and not know your parents. It's something totally different to be in the presence of your biological "parent" for 6 years and not know it.
Let's look at this example: one person has two pit-bull dogs. The first dog is friendly, playful, and approachable. The second dog is mean, nasty, and would probably kill you if given the command to do so. They are the same breed and have the same owner, but they act differently. Why? Because even though they are the same breed of animal, who came from the same womb, they were raised differently.
In my opinion (backed by scientific studies), the difference between being nurtured and being raised is LOVE. If love is not generated and demonstrated from a pure genuine place, the outcome of anything or anyone has the potential of being detrimental (deadly, harmful) not only to everyone and everything around them but more so to themselves. You could raise someone to be just like you, but you should nurture them to be better than you.
So, am I saying that the parents of Jezebel and Jacob did not love them or their children? I honestly believe that they probably did love them and their children to the best of their ability. They would probably never label their actions toward their children as "abusive" because, in their eyes, they were parents who would never hurt their child. But they were opportunists and exploited their children for their own selfish gains such as land, power, wealth, recognition, title, position-and it is all a form of neglect and abuse. No one should EVER use their child as some form of leverage or tool to get what they want. If love was a major intricate source of these people's upbringing, could you only imagine the possibilities these individuals could have had?
The conclusion of this trilogy is all about you creating and starting a process to becoming healed and becoming whole and free. It's to build you up where you have been torn down mentally and emotionally. Sometimes the thing that damaged you will be the very thing to restore you, and in this case, it's WORDS.
This book is compiled with words of aspirations, inspirations, and my favorite, affirmations, in which YOU get to create about yourself. You will become accountable to you and in doing this, I believe you will begin to give yourself back the power that was taken from you. You will begin to raise up your low SELF-esteem (key word is "self"). Allow this book to become your personal bible, diary, journal, personal challenge. Take it with you everywhere you go. Don't just read the passages but repeat them, embrace them, believe them.
I believe that if put into practice that not only will this become a daily ritual but a lifestyle and that you will begin to feel better about yourself, believe in yourself, and most importantly, love yourself as God loves you. You will not only know who you are, but you will never lose YOU again.
Let the healing begin...